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[SKZ] When you're included in a SKZCODE episode
i made this before the front desk at work tried to take me out so yall can have it now since my brain is rattled n chunky.
Genre: Fluff Pairing: OT8 x Reader Warnings: Lino's pics aren't from the episode I put bc I couldn't find any, sorry!
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Chan: Episode: Winter is Coming [Ep 1 & 2]
Pouts when he finds out he has to try and stop you from getting the flag up and down the hill in record time because he wants you to win,,, duh.
But it doesn't stop him from absolutely ramming a ball of snow into the back of your head (on accident)
Laughs at the way the boys try to stop you with their bodies and the way you fearlessly bodyslam them in an attempt to win the game
Almost dies of laughter at seeing you spin in circles and then try to attack the poor balloon - only for it to fly away and disqualify you
Buys you hot chocolate after the shoot is over and cuddles up with you to keep warm after being outside in the snow all day <3
Minho: Episode: The Ultimate SKZCODE Recap [Ep 69-70]
Has to hide his giggles at your poor presenting of the boys' awards
And how bad they are at guessing the right answers to the quiz questions
Gets all blushy when you announce him for any award and shies away when you run to the audience to sit down and cheer so loudly for him
Ends up trying to bribe you for answers to the quiz questions by winking and blowing you kisses from his table
Until he's called out by Jisung, at least
Changbin: Episode: SKZ-ARY TOWN [Ep 57-68
Cannot hide his laughter at the way you fail at bobbing for apples
But then loses his shit jumping around and yelling "That's my baby!!" when you manage to get a few and tie with Felix for first place
Tries to bribe the staff to give him the same amount of points as you since you're dating
Tells you to do the first position in the relay game but quickly switches with you when he realizes you almost fly away with Chan and Minho trying to restrict your running with the band
He's literally bouncing around with how good you are at the mini games and ends up putting you on the toast-toss station because you're the only team member who doesn't suck
Hugs you so tight when you win the game and swings you around in his arms just because he's so excited
Hyunjin: Episode: Go! Poolside SKZ [Ep 57-58]
Has the time of his life seeing you and Jisung run and dive in together because you lost rock paper scissors
Asks for you to not be on his team because he doesn't trust your ability in the water games as if he's any better himself
Ends up accidentally hitting you with the ball a few times and immediately apologizes, then allows you to throw it at him once on purpose as revenge
Just about loses it on Seungmin when he flips over your tube like Chan did with Felix, then yells for staff to disqualify him
But he's just as brutal because in the tug of war he rips your ass off of the platform and almost falls in because of how hard he's laughing at your yells of protest
Jisung: Episode: SKZ Family Returns [Ep 39-40] (He looked SO FINE in this episode good GAWD)
Has a blast flirting it up with Minho but after Seungmin starts biting back he makes a show of turning to you instead
You play his in-law technically - Your character being Hyunjin's sibling
Everyone is in shock and making a scene of Jisung's flirtatious attitude towards you as the roleplay goes on
And they're even more surprised and making drama of it when the two of you kiss behind Hyunjin's head
He ends up sitting with his guitar and singing the 'I'm sorry' song again because of it
Almost starts fighting Seungmin at one point because he 'also wants to have an affair with you' as a joke
Felix: Episode: Bedtime Bingo Hell [Ep 55-56]
Watching him yell about how he's bronze is what makes you laugh the most
He has a blast watching you try to do the pillow air-bowling but gawks when you manage to knock a few down and then yells about how you're his and how he's so proud
He's full of giggles when you hop on the whoopie cushion
And he's full of playful rage when Changbin is called 'the one with the prettiest butt' so he begins an argument that yours is way prettier
Also almost loses his shit when you come in second for the loudest fart
He's proud but at what cost
Seungmin: Episode: Fall Field Day [Ep 59-60]
Cries at seeing you in the raw chicken blow up costume and takes a picture before making it his lockscreen because he thinks you're so cute
He ends up being the one to fight you on the mat and ends up losing to you
Don't let his cuteness fool you - he absolutely obliterates you in dodgeball
Can he aim? No. And Minho can't guard for shit; So you end up getting hit more than you probably should
He giggles at you running around the sidelines in an attempt to get back in the game, singing out "I'm sorry ~"
Takes videos of you running during the relay race because he just thinks it's so cute
Jeongin: Episode: Suspicious Lab [Ep 47-48]
He's supposed to be guessing voices but he hears you go, "Ahh - I sound so much different than all of you, this isn't fair!" in your high-pitched helium tone and bursts into laughter
Your experiment ended up breaking so you did Seungmin's after him, wearing the stimulation machine on one of your arms and trying to fold an airplane
He ends up taking the remote from Minho at some point because he's having too much fun with tormenting you and Jeongin can't stand it
Turns up the machine even more to see you squirm
Also cheats during the game where he had to try and ramp up your heart rate (He touches your ass to get a reaction out of you) and then denies it in a fit of laughter when you call him out to the staff

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Take Me Home | Azriel x Reader
Azriel x Reader | When Azriel gets drunk, he forgets he has a wife.
warning: drinking, drunk & fluffy Az
a/n: You can thank tiktok for this one. It inspired me to take a little break from all the angst. I literally have never written a fic so fast before, this took me a little more than an hour. Just something short & sweet (1K words.)

Azriel liked to drink every now and then. Rarely, would he get drunk. He preferred maintaining control, always mindful of his surroundings and alert to his ever-listening shadows.Ā
But when he did get drunk, he'd sometimes forget he had a wife.
Normally, it was Azriel who stayed at your side. He was the hand that always found yours under the table when your words began to slur or the gentle pressure at the small of your back keeping you upright as you stumbled through the crowd. But tonight at Ritaās, something in his shoulders told you he needed to let go.
So when Cassian ordered shots for the table, you passed yours to Azriel with a playful grin, silently telling him, āyour turn.ā
He hesitated but after a few teasing remarks and a chorus of encouragement from the rest of the Inner Circle, he tipped the glass back and knocked it down in one go. Then another. And another.Ā
You watched the shift in him slowly unfold. His shoulders began to ease from their earlier tense posture. Though it was dark, you could see the inky tendrils of his shadows twitching and rippling less against his skin. Almost as if, they too, were content.Ā
You knew he was tipsy the moment he let Cassian drag him onto the dance floor without so much as a protest. And you knew he was drunk when he nearly tripped over nothing and just laughed before catching himself.
Across the table, you met Rhysandās gaze. He was lounging back with a smirk, swirling his drink lazily in his hand as he watched the scene unfold.
āShould I stop him?ā you asked, though your voice lacked any real concern.Ā
Rhysand raised his glass in salute toward Feyre, who had joined Cassian and Azriel on the dance floor.Ā āNo. Let him. This is the most relaxed Iāve seen him in weeks.ā
Sensing your mateās gaze on you, you turned your head back to the dance floor only to see Azriel shying away from your gaze. Oh yeah, heās definitely drunk. Rhysand chuckled, mirroring your thoughts.
Rhysand was right, though. This was the most relaxed youād seen your mate in weeks and your heart ached a little with how much he had needed a night out like this.
Azriel continued to sneak glances at you when he thought you werenāt looking. He didnāt last much longer on the dance floor. Cassianās spinning and swaying became too much, and eventually, he slipped away from his friend. His steps were a little uncoordinated.
Then, his eyes found yours. For a moment, he just stood there, staring at you like you were the only steady thing in the room. The grin that spread across his face was boyish and a little lopsided as he approached the table.
āHey,ā he said, swaying slightly.
āHey.ā You grinned back up at him, a hand reaching out to push back his hair. The stool you sat on gave you just enough advantage in height to do so. His wings shuddered in response, making your grin widen at how easily flustered he got when drunk. You adored it, reveling in being able to make him feel that way.
Azrielās shadows danced lazily around his shoulders like they, too, were drunk. He leaned down, one of his wings casting a small shadow over you, offering some privacy in the midst of the noise.
āMy friend over there,ā he whisper-yelled, breath warm against your ear and his scent washing over you, āthinks youāre cute.ā
You blinked, pulling back to look at him. āFriend?ā
Before you could even process, he pointed to the side. You followed his hand, confused, just as a soft whoosh sounded beside you.
And there he was.
Standing a few feet away with the same grin on his face, exactly in the spot he had pointed to you. You pointed your hand at him and silently beckoned him back to you. With a dark glimmer of shadows, he vanished from across the room and stumbled right back in front of you. You hopped off the stool, catching him with both hands on his chest and helping in steadying him.
āTell your friend Iām really flattered but Iām taking my husband home.ā
You showed him your ring, lifting your hand in front of his glazed eyes. He blinked at it, brows pulling together. Something like disappointment flashed across his face, his wings drooping slightly behind him.
Ā āOh.ā
You bit your lip to keep from laughing, your heart melting as you gently reached for his hand. You lifted it, bringing it up the same level of the hand flashing your wedding ring. The matching silver band to yours gleamed on his finger, and you gave your finger a little wiggle for emphasis.
His eyes widened. āOh.ā A pause. āMe?ā
You nodded, your fingers lacing with his. His whole face lit up, that grin of his brighter than ever and reaching all the way to those hazel eyes you loved so much. He turned to the person closest to you both, Rhysand, āI have a wife!ā
Rhysand raised his brow in mock surprise. āJust wait until you find out you have a mate, buddy,ā you heard him mutter.
But Azriel didnāt hear. Or maybe he did, and chose to ignore it. Either way, he turned back to you, stepping a little closer. You released his hand and Azriel was quick to place both his hands on your waist.
āWell then, my wife,ā he said, pulling you flush to him, his tone and touch possessive in a way that made your stomach flutter.
He dipped his head, his forehead resting against yours, nose brushing yours in a gentle nuzzle. His eyes flicked to your lips, lingering for a beat too long, before lifting back to yours.
āTake me home.ā
You laughed softly, cupping his cheeks and placing a chaste kiss to his lips. āOkay, my husband.ā
He looked at you like he was falling for you all over again and then, his lips were chasing yours for another taste. Warmth bloomed in your chest, the bond between you thrumming with love and adoration.
Because even if Azriel forgot he had a wife when he was drunk, his heart always knew.
At the end of the night, in every life and every state of mind, he always chose you.

a/n: Hope you enjoyed this silly little fic! & kudos to you if you recognized the tiktok that inspired this.
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a/n: I put wife/gf on these women depending on how much I personally like them and on some itās just fitting for the situation but girl feel free to imagine whatever you want š
gf!vi who, whenever youāre outside and need to leave for a second or have to take care of something even if minor, insists on holding your purse for you often trying to figure out how to not look like she just stole it, gf!vi who blows air into your ear to tease you and gf!vi who gets all proud and won't stop smiling whenever a kid swoons over how pretty you are- eyes turning soft yet envious green as soon as it's followed with an innocent marriage proposal, because hey! so that's not how things work; sorry, she has to inform the child that this lady right here, is taken. believe it :p
gf!sevika who is sick and tired of your need to be hyper independent (she understands dw) and who literally has no idea how sheās supposed to be courting you if you wonāt even let her hold the door for you. āFREE YOUā (she will) she screams, begs and prays internally every single day, trying to ease you into letting her handle things for you and gf!sevika whoās trying to make you understand that she truly isnāt your enemy and quite literally is on her hands and knees, ready to dote to your every need 24/7 (when she can)
gf!mel who will literally be letting you in on all her products and shares them with you, gf!mel who will also be applying lotion and oils onto your skin to have you radiating just as much as her if not even more. plus she has you smelling like heaven so- gf!mel who will be (if you have any) retwisting your locs whenever it is needed and gf!mel who loves to go jewelry thrifting with you and will apply your lip combo for you
gf!lest who affectionately refers to you as her miss/lady, many times also when conversing with others, gf!lest who you share cigarette kisses with, gf!lest who gently scratches your back with her long onyx colored nails and gf!lest who will trace and kiss all over your moles, pointing out how you mustāve had an indubitably fierce and fiery lover in a past life, joking about how sheāll have to kiss you all the more for you to be covered in thousands of them in a next lifetimeā¦
wife!ambessa whose silver kinky locks you love to comb through lovingly whenever sheās getting ready for the day, wife!ambessa who has you putting on a fashion show for her whenever sheās bought you another few tons worth of clothes, wife!ambessa who keeps a leg between your thighs when the two of you share a bed- not always in a sexual manner, itās simply a habit of hers, it's comfortable and your legs often end up tangled with one another, and wife!ambessa who has a thing for neck tattoos, especially those that rest at the base of the nape
gf!jinx who'll be in a full blown fight with someone talking about how she really can't be messing around with them for too long this time around because she promised her girl she'd be back at xy o'clock, gf!jinx whoās eyes bulge out after throwing her jacket onto a puddle just for you to walk around itš, gf!jinx who will be experimenting with crazy makeup looks on you and gf!jinx who seems to sleep like a dead person, yet who's grip tightens as soon as she feels you slipping away from her; either that or she instinctively moves closer to you whenever she senses some sort of unwanted distance between your bodies
wife!caitlyn who places her hand on your knee/thigh, thumb caressing slow circles on it while repeating she will be paying that damn restaurant bill- and everything else actually; put your purse away girl, what do you think this is??? wife!caitlyn who isn't the best at posing for pictures and who every single time opts to find your eyes, using them as a point of focus as she always ends up getting lost in them; like this, she never has a bad photo, especially when you're within the frame, always looking at you, a stare that is ever loving and tender
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(This is not going to be like my other posts but I think it's nice, bear with me for a bit)
Something I said got a bunch of likes on twt a few days ago, but I can't stop thinking about it so I wanted to expand on it a bit! (And I like rambling on about these things, nothing you can do on twt I assure you, this gets a bit lengthy)
Here's the interaction for reference:
OK SO! First things first: PV's awakened form, one way or another, IS a direct representation of the Fount of Knowledge. Or well, at the very least it's what we've been shown to be the most idealistic form of him.
We can't know for sure how the Fount of Knowledge actually was like or acted, because Shadow Milk will never get vulnerable enough on screen to let the audience know such things, but if the statue of him is anything to go by (and not a fabricated lie) then we have something to work with.
The Fount of Knowledge has a key opening in the middle of his chest, and coincidentally, he's also carrying his soul jam on his staff which has the form of a key. This could be interpreted as him having the answers that others' (cookies) can unlock.
However, if we pay closer attention to the pictures, we'll see that the Fount's key is a bit "weird"

As you can see, not only are there two teeths in the key, but there's also a large space from the end of the staff to the point where the first teeth appears.
If someone were to literally try to insert this key into Fount's keyhole to try and get it open, it would pierce through Fount! The key is simply too large, and it doesn't seem like complicated teeth would actually fit inside the hole either.
Now, let's see Pure Vanilla's staff!

As you can see, he only has one teeth right at the bottom of the key. This is how most functional keys look!
One interpretation could be that Fount never actually held the key towards true knowledge, which is a fault that made him fundamentally imperfect towards his greater purpose. Another reason why he fell into deceit in the first place.
Pure Vanilla, however, as holder of the light of truth, also holds a functional key as his staff. He carries that truth with him and plans to open up a path to himself and keep finding out new truths of the world.
His key isn't going to open all keyholes, just as the path he leads isn't going to let him find everything there is to know, but if he holds the truth close to his heart (therefore, the soul jam at his chest) he will continue to follow the light.
But let's circle back to Shadow Milk.
He is the beast of deceit, and he hides so much of himself that you could even call his whole current identity a lie, as if he was trying to be deceit incarnate just like he once was the representation of knowledge.
Let's remember now, that we can interpret the key hole on his chest when he was Fount as an opening to himself, and therefore, to knowledge.
Basically the truth of himself, if I'm making any sense with this.
When he turns into Shadow Milk though, where does he hold his soul jam of deceit? Right where the keyhole was! Essentially, he's obscuring the truth of the world and of himself with lies.

Now, what does Pure Vanilla say at the end of BY8?
He says that he is the one who can understand him best, that he's the only one who can understand Shadow Milk.
And while it's mentioned that it's because of their shared soul jam, this is not the only reason why.
Shadow Milk and Pure Vanilla are very important to each other, in whatever way you want to see it. They're essential to each other's story and development.
In the end, the reason why they can understand each other so well is because they're pretty similar. At least in the way they feel, or have felt, about the world.
There's a reason why Pure Vanilla turned into Truthless Recluse after all. Even if it was for a short amount of time, those were still his real feelings, and they mirrored Shadow Milk's own.
The fact that Awakened Pure Vanilla holds a key is to find his own truth, and this fact cannot be diminished. However, I think it would be a disservice to his character and their relationship if it's not also acknowledged that Pure Vanilla's truth fundamentally involves Shadow Milk's true self too.
Fount of Knowledge, as much as that's a discarded persona, it's also a part of Shadow Milk he cannot erase. And Pure Vanilla understands this the same way he understands that Truthless Recluse was a part of himself too.
Pure Vanilla's staff as a key, exists to unlock the hidden lock Shadow Milk has buried deep into his past. Because Shadow Milk's truth is also Pure Vanilla's truth.
That's why he embraces deceit, because Shadow Milk is deceit. And Pure Vanilla tries to make Shadow Milk embrace the truth too, that's why he asks him to be his friend.
Pure Vanilla is truth, so by asking Shadow Milk to be friends with him, he's asking him to embrace truth.
This entails Shadow Milk accepting his past, which Pure Vanilla has the key to unlock now with his awakening and the arduous journey he underwent in the spire to find himself. A key that has long been tossed away by Shadow Milk when he stopped being the Fount of knowledge.
Therefore, while Pure Vanilla's key can't crack open every lock in his way, it is designed by default for its priority to be opening Shadow Milk's heart/soul.
(One last thing would also be that Pure Vanilla's staff, from having a light, technically is also traversing through the darkness in Shadow Milk. I don't want to go into too much detail because this is better explained by this post, go check their stuff out on both of their accounts, it's really good!)
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Anyways, that's it, thank you for coming to my Ted talk. Maybe I'll post another analysis in the future if this is well received lol (I have this idea of PV's awakened form being Fount's but reverse if that makes sense???)
Bye now ā¤
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Brothers Bound in Revenge
Brother's in Arms series: 1 - 2 (you are here)
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It's finally done!! Definitely wound up longer than I meant it to lol, but I have no regrets. As usual, I have barely edited this. Also, I have still barely read any comics yet (working on it) so these will be very fanon characterizations.
While I already wanted to write a sequel for Brothers Forged in Laughter, ao3 user sweetlikesalt solidified the idea with this comment of theirs, so everyone say thank you lol:
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Fandom:Ā Batfamily (no specific source material/continuity)
Ship(s):Ā Gen!!! Platonic!! Familial!! No batcest here
Characters (lee/ler):Ā Lee!Jason & Lers!Tim and Dick (plus VERY brief ler!Jason, and lees!Tim and Dick)
Word Count:Ā 6106 words (how did this wind up LONGER than the last one sdkjfh)
Summary:Ā Jason's figuring out how to be family again, and learning how to be a big brother. Dick decides he needs to be reminded what it's like to be a little brother, too -- along with letting Tim get a little revenge.
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���Are you coming to family dinner this week?ā
The Red Hood bit back a sigh ā not that the voice modulator in his helmet would have necessarily picked it up ā and kept his back to Robin, focusing instead on the gang members loitering beneath his ledge.
āDonāt know about that, Robin,ā he said. Then, as an afterthought, āSorry.ā
Aside from his little bonding moment with the new bird, his first (and last) family dinner didnāt go so well. It was tense and awkward, Bruce asking stilted, surface level questions that turned more and more pointed as the night went on. Dick and Tim tried to buffer him, and even Alfred admonished him a couple times, but Bruce always managed to circle back. Dessert ended early with a screaming match and Jason storming back down to the Cave to his motorcycle before anyone could chase after him and convince him to try and patch things up. Heād missed the past two family dinners since, and had avoided the Batcave as much as he possibly could.
It always came down to the same things with Bruce. Jason was reckless, dangerous, out of control and, as always, it was Bruceās responsibility to curb, calm, and corral him. Bruceās responsibility to rehabilitate him, as if Jason needed to be rehabilitated at all. Heād dropped the crime lord thing almost as soon as his plan for Bruce to kill the Joker blew up in his face (literally), and it wasnāt like the bodies heād been dropping since were without merit. No one would miss those scum ā abusers, pedophiles, serial murderers. Batman needed to learn that not everyone was capable of being saved.
āAre you sure?ā Robin asked, creeping up to crouch beside him on the ledge. āAgent A misses you.ā
The we miss you went unsaid. Hood knew heād dropped the ball with his brothers since that dinner. Avoiding that Batcave (and the Manor) meant avoiding them by extension, since he was too wary of Bruce stalking their lines of communication to give them directions to any of his safehouses. Not to mention the fact that he moved between them so frequently that it would be difficult for them to keep up with where he was staying, anyways. Heād just started becoming family to Tim, and he almost immediately left the kid high and dry. Some big brother he was.
āTell him Iāll try to come by soon.ā
Robin hummed noncommittally, clearly seeing through Hoodās attempt to placate him. This time, Hood did sigh, the helmet translating it into static, and reached over to ruffle Robinās hair. He resisted the urge to dig his fingers into one of the softer joints of Robinās armor ā his targets would absolutely hear that squeaking laughter.
āTell you what, kid ā I could use some help, here. Wanna help me take this group down?ā
Robin perked up, sending a grin in his direction.
āJust make sure to leave one awake ā we need to know where their boss is.ā
āYou got it.ā
āOn three. One, twoāā
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Nightwing didnāt even try to be stealthy as he landed behind the Red Hood, practically skipping across the rooftop to plop himself on the edge next to him. Hood didnāt spare him a glance, keeping his gaze firmly locked on the clouds above, as if he could see beyond them to the stars above. Though Gotham was his home, he couldnāt help but feel a bit homesick for the shine of the stars. Heād seen so many when he was with Talia and the LoA, but between Gothamās constantly shit weather and all the light pollution, he hadnāt seen a single one since he returned.
āIf youāre here about dinner,ā Hood said, āI already told the little bird āno.āā
Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Nightwing shrug. āFigured. Iām not going to try and convince you.ā
āReally?ā He said flatly.
In his peripheral, he saw Nightwing turn to stare at him. Hood kept his gaze forward. Heād taken his helmet off for a breath of fresh air, and having little more than a domino mask to protect his expressions made him feel far too exposed at the moment. At least the profile view added some sort of barrier to reading him.
āWhen I was close to your age, I didnāt exactly want to be around B most of the time either. There was a reason I moved out, and there was a reason I always made myself so busy with the Titans.ā
Hood let out a long breath. āYouāre around a lot more now than you used to beā
Nightwing finally turned away, looking down at his hands clasped between his knees. āItās one of my biggest regrets, letting my shit relationship with B affect my relationship with you. When I did come by, it was mostly to see you ā steal you away, teach you to be Robin, sneak out for train-hopping.ā
Hood didnāt know what to say. He pressed his lips into a thin line.
āWith Robin, it still took me a while to get over myself, but I didnāt want to make the same mistakes twice. I overcompensated for a while before finding my balance.ā He chuckled. āIt drove Robin crazy sometimes. I was just so scared to lose another brother, especially without him knowing how much I cared about him. Me and B⦠we came to an understanding ā at least, for the most part ā over time, with me being around so often again.ā
Guilt churned deep in Hoodās stomach. āNightwingāā
Nightwing shook his head. āIām not saying you have to come around. Honestly, stay away for as long as you need. Sometimes I still canāt even stand to be around him, no matter how much weāve grown or how much I care about him. Thatās probably why it hurts so much.ā Nightwing turned to stare at him again, and this time Hood couldnāt keep himself from looking in Nightwingās direction. āBut donāt lock us out too just because B canāt get his righteous head out of his ass.ā
Donāt make my mistakes, Hood heard underneath.
āYeah,ā was all Hood could manage.
They sat in silence for a bit longer before Hood heard the tell-tale buzz of a distant comm line. Nightwing raised his hand to his ear, likely for Hoodās benefit because Hood knew thatās not how the Bat-comms operated, and said, āIām on my way.ā
āDuty calls?ā
Nightwing shot him a strained grin. āWhen doesnāt it?ā His smile became a bit more natural as he scrubbed his hand over Hoodās head, making his helmet-hair even worse. āDonāt be a stranger.ā
Red Hood didnāt have a chance to reply as Nightwing dove off the building, shooting out his grapnel line halfway through his fall. He waited until Nightwing disappeared in the smog before shoving his helmet back on. The Bats could handle the rest of the city, but Crime Alley wasnāt going to protect itself.
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Jason got himself a phone.
He had plenty of phones, honestly ā enough burners to cover all his bases and then some, and he frequently dumped and replaced them. This phone though, it was his first personal phone since he came back. He made sure to pass it off to Barbara first, get it souped up with all the Bat-grade protections it could possibly need, and with her sincere promise that Bruce himself wouldnāt have any way into the device despite that.
When she returned it, sheād done more than just upgrade his security. Where his contacts before had been a blank slate, there was now a neat list of five names. He flipped through them, changing four of the contact names to be much less formal. Opening the final contact, he hovered his thumb over the āDeleteā button for several long minutes before letting out a slew of swears and closing out of the contacts app, leaving that final contact untouched.
He shot off quick texts to Dick and Tim, nothing more than a āHey, itās Jason.ā and got a set of responses back almost immediately. Dick was a spam-texter, it seemed, cheering through his messages and telling Jason it was āabout damn timeā he got a phone. Tim sent him only two messages in reply. A brief āewā and a follow-up of āyou text with proper grammar??ā
From that day on, there was not a single moment where Jason was free of his brothers. Dick started sending him dozens of TikToks a day (where he found the time to scroll TikTok so much in-between his day job and the vigilantism, Jason had no idea), practically forcing Jason to download the app just to keep up, as much as he despised social media. He was loathe to admit it, but every once in a while, some of the videos Dick sent him were actually kind of funny.Ā
Tim, on the other hand, seemed to get a kick out of sending Jason memes that he either wasnāt alive to see come about, or he was stuck with the League at the time with no knowledge of the current popular culture. He communicated almost exclusively through them, and Jason knew it was intentional to get under his nerves. It felt like he was trying to translate hieroglyphics at times, and whenever he asked Dick or Barbara for help, they just laughed at him.
And then, a few weeks in, the invites started coming through.Ā
A new coffee shop just opened up in the Bowery, you in? Jason was never getting coffee with Tim again after that, because holy shit, was his order horrific.Ā
Thereās this adult arcade downtown ā you in? Jason knew that they were the heirs to a billionaire, but he still couldnāt fathom the amount of money Dick spent on goddamn claw games. And somehow, he won every time. Jason didnāt even know where to put all the plushies Dick forced on him after that trip.Ā
Bowling?? Steph said this place is actually only marginally sketchy. Jason and his brothers were now banned from the bowling alley.
Okay so bowling was a bust ā roller-skating? Jason and Tim were now banned from the skating rink. Dick somehow got off scott-free. Jason blamed the puppy-dog eyes.
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Even once he and Bruce were on speaking terms again, the invites didnāt stop ā which was how Jason found himself making the drive to Bludhaven one evening. Dick decided that they were due for a movie night, and since Jason was still avoiding the Manor itself, heād decided that the next best place would be his own apartment.
They ordered some absolute monstrosities from the nearby pizza joint (Dickās pineapple and andouille pizza was always horrifying, but at least Jason had been prepared for it ā Timās Canadian bacon pizza with onions and artichoke hearts, Jason never wanted to see again), and Dick left the two of them to pick the movie while he went to pick up the pizza.
Of course, the little snot was nothing if not an absolute nerd, and most of his suggestions were weird sci-fi shit. As if they didnāt get enough of that with their gallery of doctorate-wielding Rogues and their insane fucking inventions. Then again ā Jason had the perfect solution to get what he wanted out of the kid.
āIām gonna kill you!ā Tim shrieked in-between frantice giggling, trying to pry Jasonās hands off his sides.
Jason hummed. āDick would be very disappointed in you when he got back if you did.ā
Tim managed to twist out of his grip, throwing himself across the rug to create distance between them. āWhatās wrong with Interstellar anyways?ā
Jason wrinkled his nose. āDonāt we deal with enough dimension-travel and time-travel shit enough in our night jobs?ā He launched himself forward after Tim, ignoring the kidās squeals as he dragged him close again. āBesides, letting you win the movie pick means I donāt get to do this.ā
Jason wasted no time on this second attack, immediately digging his fingers into Timās highest ribs. Tim almost choked on his laughter, shrieking out a few curse words, and Jason had little doubt that Dick would have a noise complaint by the end of the night. Whatever ā it wasnāt like it was Jasonās problem. No, the only thing Jason needed to worry about right now was what method made Tim laugh the hardest. Fingernails or fingertips? Wiggling or squeezing? Vibrating fingers or fast skittering? He just couldnāt decide.
Tim was practically in tears by the time he finally conceded to Jasonās movie choice, having laughed himself nearly hoarse. Just in time, too, because Dick just texted their group chat (also new ā and the incessant spam of notifications that often burst from it annoyed Jason to no end) that he was on the way up.
āJust you wait,ā Tim said, chest heaving and face cherry-red. āIām gonna sic Dick on you, and then youāll be sorry.ā
Jason snorted, making himself comfortable on Dickās lumpy-ass sofa. āGood luck with that kid. I already told you both ā the Pit took care of that. Iām immune.ā He gave a playfully malicious grin. āLeaves me with plenty of chances to torture you, though, donāt worry.ā
The front door to the apartment banged open. āHey ā does anyone know why my neighbor just cussed me out in the hallway? I swear, heās never looked thatā Timmy? What the hell happened?ā
Jason laughed.
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Bruce was out of town for a few days ā an actual business trip this time, no JL covers ā and he took Alfred with him. Which meant that someone needed to cover Gotham for the week. Which meant that Dick was in town for an extended period of time. All of this also meant that Dick and Tim were left in the Manor unsupervised with no Alfred to keep them from burning down the kitchen.
Thatās how Jason found himself being guilt-tripped into spending the week at the Manor with them, if only to ensure they didnāt survive solely off of cereal, microwave meals, and caffeine. Dick, of course, was thrilled at their āBrother Sleepover,ā and promptly spent the week kicking their ass at Mario Kart. Not even Tim, in all his nerdy, geeky glory could beat him, and death had done Jason no favors with his own virtual racing skills.
Overall, despite the constant skin-crawling feelings Jason had for half the week, his stay at the Manor didnāt go horribly. Plus, it was kind of nice cooking for more than just one person. He might have to establish a more permanent safehouse so he could have his brothers (and Barbie ā heād have to make sure the elevator was actually working in whatever building he chose) over for dinner. Or maybe heād finally try coming to another family dinner, just for the excuse of helping Alfred cook.
Either way, by the end of the week, Dick was adamant that it was about time for another brothersā movie night. Jason rolled his eyes and put up the expected complaints (it was a familiar song and dance now ā even if he didnāt mean it), but still found himself at the grocery store while Dick picked Tim up from school, picking out ingredients to make them a special dinner for the last night of their āBrother Sleepover.ā He was shoving everything into the kitchen when Dick and Tim got home, Tim groaning as he entered the kitchen for a snack.
āJason ā your food is amazing and all, but can we please just get takeout tonight?ā
Jason turned around, his eyebrows raised. āExcuse me?ā
āWe can just order pizza instead ā I wonāt even get anything weird on it!ā
āYouād rather have greasy takeout pizza than a home-cooked meal?ā Jason crossed his arms and leaned back against the kitchen island. āYouād give Alfred a heart-attack.ā
Tim rolled his eyes. āLike youāve never begged Alfred for takeout instead of something from home.ā
Jason pursed his lips. He couldnāt exactly argue that ā they all had at some point. Still, āI already got the shit, weāre eating here.ā
Jason pinpointed the exact moment when Tim went from normal vigilante teenager to horribly obnoxious piece of shit. He narrowed his eyes for a moment before his expression turned to an exaggerated pout. He slumped his shoulders and gazed up at Jason with his little wounded-baby-bird eyes.Ā
āCome on, Jay, please? We can make it another night ā canāt we have pizza?ā
Jason huffed and pushed himself away from the counter. āAlright you little shit ā get over here.ā
He made a swipe for Tim, who shrieked and immediately launched himself out of reach when Jasonās fingers grazed his ribs. When he looked up at Jason this time, gone was the faux-pout. Instead, his eyes were wide with surprise and anticipation, the twitch of his mouth almost giddy as he eyed Jasonās hands warily. Jason grinned and took a heavy step forward, drawing out the game. Then, suddenly, Timās eyes narrowed and his jaw set. Without warning, he bolted from the kitchen.
āWhaā get back here! Face your sentence like a man, TimTam!ā
Jason raced after him, winding through the labyrinthian halls of the Manor. As they got closer to the front side of the mansion, Tim started shouting.
āDick! Dick, help me!ā
Jasonās jaw dropped. āYou fuckingā running to Dick for help, as if you donāt deserve this!ā
āDick, heās doing it again!ā
As they approached the den, Jason put on a burst of speed. Unfortunately, it seemed as though Tim was holding back as well, breaking into a dead sprint to reach the den first. The two of them crashed through the entryway, knocking down a whole stack of pillows and blankets that someone had piled by the door. Dick stood in the middle of the room, clearly having been rearranging furniture for the āideal movie night positioning,ā looking absolutely flabbergasted.
Tim, still with that young Robin springiness, was able to extricate himself from the avalanche of comfy items easily. He bounced out of the pile and darted behind Dick, using him as a human shield. Jason, while highly trained, was now all bulky muscle instead of flexible springiness, and had a harder time wading out of the mess.
āWhat on earth is going on, here?ā Dick asked, gaze darting between Jason and Tim behind his back.
āHeās trying to kill me!ā
Jason scoffed. āPlease ā you were being a little shit, you canāt tell me you didnāt deserve it.ā
Tim peeked around Dickās torso to stick his tongue out at Jason, before ducking back behind Dick as Jason finally got his foot free of the last blanket and began to approach.
Dick had a look on his face, that constipated one he made when he wanted to laugh but was still trying to take them seriously for the sake of their pride. āAnd how, exactly, was Jason going to kill you?ā Dick tilted slightly to the side to look at Tim, exposing him to Jasonās sight.
The apples of Timās cheeks went pink as he scowled at them both. āTickle me,ā he mumbled.
Jason clicked his tongue, advancing on them both. āYou heard the kid ā he said to tickle him, letās get to it Goldie.ā
Dick broke, laughing as Tim yelped and ducked fully behind him again. He laughed even harder as Jason tried to reach around him and snatch Tim, doing nothing to help.
āYou know, Jay ā youāve turned into quite the tickle monster over the past few months.ā
Jason grunted, barely paying attention. āYeah? Heās getting the full little brother experience, I remember what you were like when I was a kid.ā
Dickās eyes narrowed. Before Jason had even fully processed the change in expression, his hackles had raised. He backed out of Dickās space quickly, eyeing him with suspicion. Tim perked up, picking up on the change in vibes. Jason was no longer the most dominant personality in the room.Ā
Dickās mouth twisted into a smirk. One that Jason remembered all too well. āMaybe a little payback is in order, Little Wing. What do you think?
Jason crossed his arms, raising to his full height to try and cut a more intimidating figure. Dickās eyes twinkled, and he could practically imagine Dick cooing at the posturing inside his own head.
āIāve already told you both, the Pit got rid of all that.ā
Dick looked him up and down. āReally? Why are you all the way over there, then?ā
āMuscle memory.ā
āRight, right. You know, you never have let us prove that theory of yours.ā
Jason widened his stance as subtly as he could, preparing to run. āWhat would be the point of that?ā
Dick bared his teeth, a facsimile of a friendly smile. Jason turned tail to bolt, but a body suddenly latched onto his back. Knocked off balance, Jason found himself tumbling face-first into the mountain of pillows and blankets. Seriously ā why had Dick brought so many? He tossed the body off his back, hearing Timās laughter filled oof as he got swallowed by the plush pile as well. He barely managed to roll over in time to catch Dickās hands as he dove towards Jasonās prone form.
āI think someoneās been lying,ā Dick sing-songed, trying to twist his hands out of Jasonās grip
āI think youāre full of shit ā let me up, Dick.ā
Dick pulled out his most innocent expression. āBut Little Wing ā youāre the one holding onto me.ā
āYeah because youāre going toā be a jerk!ā
Dick laughed, his own grip on Jasonās hands flexing. āYeah? How am I gonna be a jerk?ā
āIām not falling for that.ā
Dick shrugged. āDoesnāt change anything.ā
Tim popped up from the bedding, hair sticking every which way from being mussed against the fabrics. āYou do kinda deserve it.ā
āShut your trap, snotface.ā
Tim wrinkled his nose. āRude.ā
Jason pursed his lips, running through every escape plan in his mind. He was trapped in this comfy avalanche, sinking deeper with every struggle ā even if Dick wasnāt hovering overtop him, it would take him way too long to crawl his way out. The second he let go of Dickās hands to try and get away, he was a goner ā Dick knew all his worst spots, and exactly how to target them. Dick was like a shark who smelled blood, there was almost no getting out of this now.
Unless he took Dick down first.
Jason tossed Dickās hands to the sides as hard as he could. He heard Tim yelp and collapse back into the blankets to avoid a flying limb, but he figured the kid was fine ā Robins had quick reflexes. Before Dick could recover, Jason dove his own hands toward Dickās knees and thighs, squeezing away the moment he found muscle. Dick cried out, immediately bursting into cackles. After a few seconds, he wavered and collapsed sideways into the blanket pile next to Jason.
āFucking jerk!ā
Jason grinned. āDonāt forget Dickie ā Iām bigger than you now.ā
Despite laughing his head off and failing to squirm away from Jasonās hands, Dick still had that devious twinkle in his eyes. He fought to speak through his laughter, āYou may be bigger, but we have numbers.ā
āWeā?ā
For the second time in as many minutes, a small body barrelled into Jasonās back. Overbalancing, Jason was forced to take one hand off of Dick and plant it into the blankets to compensate for the new weight.
āI still donāt get why you had to throw me at him like a ragdoll the first time,ā Tim piped up from behind him.
Dick twisted and contorted in ways only he could and suddenly Jason found himself swallowed by the blankets and cushions once more. Tim yelped and barely scrambled off in time to avoid getting crushed.
āYou threw him?ā Jason asked incredulously.
Dick shrugged. āEnrichment for baby birds. They love flying.ā
Tim popped back up, his hair even worse than before. āThatās fair.ā
While Jason was distracted by the absolute robinās nest on Timās head, Dick lunged again. They entered into a grapple, one that Jason quickly lost at the unexpected flutter of Timās fingers in the crook of his neck. He yelped at an embarrassing pitch as one hand darted up to snatch the offending fingers.
āYou are still ticklish!ā Dick crowed.
āLiar!ā Tim shouted at the same time.
Dick took full advantage of the moment of distraction, grabbing onto the wrist of Jasonās raised hand with both of his and pinning it in the pile of fluff. His torso wound up draped diagonally over Jasonās chest to do it, almost knocking the wind out of him.
āGet him!ā
Small, precise fingers slipped under Jasonās leather jacket, scribbling against the hoodie underneath. It was thick enough to provide protection from the hesitant touch, but Jason still couldnāt stop the instinctive flinch from fingers just existing that close to his underarms.
āFuck you!ā He yelled, struggling under Dickās weight. He had Jasonās arm well-pinned, he had far better leverage and the angle was awkward from the shifting of the blankets. Jason reached to pry the fingers away with his free arm, but Dickās body blocked his arm from being able to reach.
āHarder, Timmy! Heās got layersāā
āIām not fucking Shrekāā
āAre you sure?ā Tim, that little snot.
āYouāre such a fuckingā No!ā
Two hands delivered a series of nibbling pinches up and down Jasonās exposed side and ribs, the sensation cutting through his hoodie like it was nothing. He tossed his head back with laughter, hating how bubbly it sounded. His legs lurched up, bending at the knees.
āWow,ā Tim said over his laughter. āI didnāt know you could laugh and it actually sound happy.ā
Dick chuckled. āYou shouldāve heard him when he was younger ā all shrieky and giggly. Iām glad he didnāt grow out of it.ā
āIām right here, assholes!ā
Dick clicked his tongue. āThat you are, Jay. Are we not paying enough attention to you? Here, Iāll help.ā
āDick, no!ā
Obviously, Dick did not listen. With Jason already growing weaker from the laughter and tickling, Dick could easily keep him pinned with just one hand. With his newly freed fingers, he reached down and clawed into Jasonās stomach. Jason shrieked, his legs lurching up again as he instinctively tried to curl around the weak point and was halted by Dick being in the way.
āWow,ā Tim said. āDick really wasnāt joking, you are freakishly ticklish.ā
Jason tried to bare his teeth. With how wide his smile was, he wasnāt sure the threat came across. āNot as ticklish as you.ā
Tim only smirked at him. āWell, Iām not the one pinned down, am I?ā
Little shit. Jason was absolutely going to get him later. And Dick, too.
āMight as well get revenge while I can, right?ā Tim continued. āWhatās that thing you like to do to me? Rib counting?ā
Dick laughed again, leaning his weight more heavily on Jasonās torso. He took his own tickling fingers away, using that hand to try and shove Jasonās legs down instead.
āDiabolical, Baby Bird. Count away, Iāll try to keep our little pill-bug here from messing you up.ā
āOh, thatās okay.ā Timās voice was the epitome of innocence. āIf he messes me up, it just means I have to start over again. I mean, thatās what you taught me, right, Jay?ā
āIām gonna kill you!ā
Tim hummed. āYeah, it pays to be thorough.ā
Jasonās ribs were far from his most ticklish spot, but when Timās hands slipped underneath his hoodie, leaving him only with a threadbare t-shirt as his last layer of defense, Jason thought he was going to die. He always knew he was ticklish as all hell, but going without the feeling for so long, every sensation felt electric. He couldnāt even keep track of his own laughter, and he tried his damndest to tune out Timās count because he was not about to let his baby brother get the upper hand in teasing, too.Ā
The most infuriating part? The fact that he couldnāt stop the warm, melty feeling in his chest, hearing Tim giggle along or seeing Dick beaming down at him. He was the goddamned Red Hood. He should not be having this much fun in a one-sided tickle fight with his brothers ā especially not on the losing side.
Jasonās legs jumped up again, and this time Jason put a little more control into it. He tried to ram his knees into Dickās side ā jostle him, knock him off Jasonās torso, or hell, even just annoy him. Jason didnāt care, so long as he landed a hit. Unfortunately, Dickās free hand was still poised to ward off any attacks, shoving his legs away every time they got too close. When he finally slipped a knee past Dickās defenses, he called out an affronted āheyā and reached out to grab the joint.
The squawking little yip that Jason let out as the joint was squeezed may have been the most embarrassing noise that heād ever made in his life. Both Dick and Tim tumbled into laughter, pausing their attack.
āLet me go,ā Jason demanded as he regained his breath. His voice didnāt quite carry the heat he had been looking for.
Dick turned to give him that creepy stare-down that made it feel like he was tearing Jasonās soul open to look inside. Satisfied with whatever he found, his mouth twisted back into his patented ātickle monsterā smirk.
āI donāt think so, Little Wing. I mean, a few rounds of rib counting is hardly revenge.ā
Jason started squirming and kicking, making a show out of trying to get away despite knowing he wasnāt going to get anywhere. Dick gave him a few squeezes to the kneecap for the trouble, sending Jason into mortifying titters.Ā
āWhereās his tickle spot?ā Tim asked eagerly, raising up on his knees to scan over Jasonās torso. āThatāll show him.ā
Dick pressed his lips together on a smile. Apparently, laughing at Jason was fair game, but laughing at the adorable menace that was Tim Drake was not allowed.
āDickāā
āI think itās cheating to tell, Timmy.ā Dick cut off Jasonās protest before he could even get started. Jason nearly let out a sigh of relief, but Dick wasnāt done. āI think youāre just gonna have to keep going until you find it.ā
āWhatāā
Tim let out an evil laugh, far more menacing than any 15 year old had the right to be ā let alone one that looked so much like a wet cat.
Too quickly for Jason to take advantage of, Dick raised off his body and slid into place behind his head. Jason tried to go for Tim with his newfound reach, but Dick snatched his wrist out of the air and easily pinned it down. After a brief struggle, Jason gave up and just laid there, staring at the ceiling.
āI hate you both.ā
āSure you do, Jay.ā
Tim waddled up to Jason, wading through the blankets and pillows surrounding them on his knees. He hovered over Jason for a moment, uncertainty flashing through his eyes.
Aw, hell.
āWell, Timbo? Do your worst. I know you wonāt find it.ā
Tim narrowed his eyes, the uncertainty vanishing as Tim was confronted with a competition.
āOh, yeah? And what if I do?ā
Jason hummed, pretending to consider. āYou might earn yourself a pizza.ā
Tim lit up like a Christmas tree. His hands shot out to Jasonās ribs, provoking that bubbly laughter once more.
āWell, we already know itās not here.ā
āSo why are you tickling there?!ā
Dick laughed at them.
Tim stuck his tongue out at him. āāCause itās funny.ā
But he did move his hands, crawling them up into Jasonās armpits like two devious little spiders. Jason jolted, snorts intermingling with his laughter.
āGet out!ā
Tim perked up. āDid I find it?ā
āSorry, Baby Bird,ā Dick said. āNot just yet.ā
Tim frowned and furrowed his brow ā his thinking face looked uncannily like Bruceās ā and scanned Jasonās torso. His hands flitted down to Jasonās stomach and sides, his laughter dying down the slightest bit but thankfully not at giggles quite yet. The Red Hood did not giggle.
āDick got you here, so itās not here.ā
Jasonās legs bounced up as he instinctively tried to curl around the hands. Tim took a page out of Dickās book, squeezing Jasonās kneecap until it jumped out of his grasp.
āOr here, but you sound ridiculous right now.ā
Jason tried to growl through his laughter, but Tim wasnāt exactly wrong. Jumping between the light laughter from his stomach and the high pitched tittering from his knees, Jason was making an absolute fool of himself. His only saving grace was that Bruce wasnāt home to witness it. Heād never live that down.
Tim gave Jason a break, lifting his hands to run them through his messy hair. āAm I completely off track, is it your feet or something?ā
āNot. Telling.āĀ
Tim glared at Jason for a moment before flicking his eyes up to Dickās, giving him that puppy-gaze. Jason looked up too, trying to burn holes through Dickās skull with his eyes. Dick smirked, his eyes darting down to Jasonās torso and back up to Timās face again. Tim got that constipated look again, his own eyes darting back down to Jasonās abdomen.
āButā?ā
Then Tim made The Face. The same face he made when heād solved a tough case that heād been working for a while. The wide eyes, the slightly parted lips, as if he was surprised at his own success, the relaxing of his ever-scrunched-up eyebrows. A jolt of giddy panic sparked up Jasonās chest.
āYou already lost,ā he said quickly. āYou asked Dick for help. You cheated.ā
Tim met his eyes. āWell then, I guess I have nothing else to lose.ā
Giving Jason no time to prepare, Tim started squeezing away at Jasonās hips. It wasnāt as bad as his memories of Bruce or Dick attacking him, but theyād had the benefit of practice. A lot of practice. As it was, it still tickled like hell. Jasonās mind went blank as he practically screamed out cackles. He tried to curl himself into a ball again, and this time, his brothers let him. Dick released his arms and Tim let his legs shoot up, and Jason curled himself into the tightest ball that he could around all the bulky muscle he had now.
That didnāt mean Tim had stopped tickling though. No, even as Jason rolled onto his side in a feeble defense, Tim just targeted both hands on the hip that was still accessible.
āAw, little pill-bug Jay is alive and well,ā Dick cooed.
Iāll kill you here and now, Jason wanted to say. Unfortunately, all his breath was currently being directed to support his laughter. Thankfully, Dick only let Tim go on for a couple more minutes before pulling him back, leaving Jason to heave in breaths as he recovered.
āNext time,ā Dick stage-whispered. āIāll show you how ticklish his back is.ā
āNext time,ā Jason grumbled. āIāll cut off your damn hands.ā
Tim snorted. Dick patted him on the back.Ā
āSure you will, buddy.ā
āSo,ā Tim said, drawing out the word, āsince youāre so tired from that and all ā maybe you wanna get pizza instead of cooking?ā
Jason took a deep breath before heaving himself up to a sitting position, letting out an exaggerated groan. āNope.ā
Tim groaned as well, flopping back into the mess they made of Dickās pile of bedding.
Shaking off the last of the ghost tickles, Jason gave Dick a heated glare as he pushed himself to his feet. Dick blinked back innocently. His brothers were such goddamned liars.
āI already bought the ingredients,ā Jason said. āIām cooking and youāre going to like it.ā
Tim levelled him with a challenging look. āAnd what if I donāt.ā
āThen youāll suck it up and eat it anyway.ā
Jason tromped out of the room, heading back toward the kitchen. Dick and Tim could handle the den setup without him ā they were much pickier about blanket nests than he was. Where Jason would just slap together a blanket fort with some kitchen chairs and sheets, Tim preferred to engineer a structurally sound blanket castle when he had the chance. Leaving Tim with free reign of the den furniture and half the Manorās worth of bedding to accomplish this task gave Jason more than enough time to finish up dinner with the prep heād done earlier that day.
Seeing Timās face light up as Jason personally delivered his monstrosity of a pizza order, made from scratch, almost made the whole meaningless argument that led to his torture worth it.Ā
Almost.
Dick and Tim werenāt going to escape from his revenge that easily.
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āĀ·Ė ą¼ * JARED CAMERON HEADCANONS šĢø.į

dating jared cameron would includeā¦
jared being completely smitten from the second he realizes youāre his imprint.
like, full-on golden retriever energy.
he tries to play it cool at first, but it lasts maybe five minutes before heās showing up everywhere you go, smiling like you hung the stars.
the pack teasing him constantly because he turns into this soft, dreamy version of himself whenever youāre around.
embry makes gagging noises, paul pretends to swoon, and sam gives him the look when he skips patrol to walk you home (again).
he gets so protective ā not in a controlling way, just in a deeply instinctive āthatās my person and iāll rip apart anything that hurts themā kind of way.
even before youāre officially together, his eyes track you anytime youāre nearby.
so much touching.
jared is obsessed with physical affection. he always has a hand on your back, slinging an arm around your shoulders, or holding your hand in his ridiculously warm grip. he gets grumpy if he canāt be near you.
you teasing him about being your personal space heater in the winter. he just grins and pulls you closer.
āyouāre not cold anymore, are you?ā
āno, but i canāt feel my ribs now.ā
āthatās love, babe.ā
jared trying to be patient when youāre upset, even though his wolf side hates seeing you cry.
he paces the room, fists clenched, practically vibrating with frustration ā not at you, but at the fact that youāre hurting and he canāt fix it fast enough.
him picking you up like itās nothing. literally throws you over his shoulder just to make you laugh. or carries you when youāre tired, injured, or just because he wants to.
āwhy are you carrying me?ā
ābecause i like holding you. duh.ā
worshipping you when youāre insecure. jared doesnāt just say youāre beautiful ā he means it in that intense, imprinting way that makes your knees weak.
āi wish you could see what i see when i look at you. youād never doubt yourself again.ā
late night drives where he takes you out to the cliffs just to talk and be alone. he lets you play whatever music you want.
you end up in his lap in the front seat, pressed against his chest while he traces lazy circles on your back.
him being loyal to a fault. heās all in, heart and soul.
if anyone even looks at you the wrong way, jaredās already glaring from across the room.
āthey werenāt even flirting, jared.ā
āthey breathed too close to you. i saw it.ā
inside jokes whispered during pack meetings. you bite your lip trying not to laugh while sam glares at both of you.
him talking about the future like itās a given. not in a pushy way, just casually weaving you into every plan.
āwhen we get our own placeā¦ā
āsomeday, when youāre my wifeā¦ā
āour kids are gonna have the best damn genes.ā
and at the end of the day, jared would be the kind of boyfriend who makes everything feel safe.
no matter how bad your day was, coming home to his arms would make you feel like nothing else mattered but the two of you.
jared always noticing the small things.
if you change your shampoo, he smells it instantly. if youāre slightly off emotionally, heās right there, gently tugging you aside like,
ātalk to me. donāt shut me out.ā
he feels your shifts before you do sometimes.
him being so vocal about how much he loves you. not just big declarations ā itās the soft, daily stuff.
āyou look beautiful today.ā
āyouāre my favorite person in the whole damn world.ā
āi didnāt think i could be this happy until you.ā
him sneaking kisses in public.
heās not shy about pda at all.
quick kisses to your temple when you walk past. leaning over just to kiss your cheek while you talk to someone. wrapping his arms around you from behind at bonfires.
you wearing his clothes all the time. and he loves it. you in his hoodie? heaven. you sleeping in his t-shirt? heās gone.
ākeep it. looks better on you anyway.ā
getting mad at jared is hard.
mostly because he gives you those puppy eyes and soft apologies the second he realizes youāre upset.
āi didnāt mean to upset you. can we talk about it? please?ā
but if youāre mad and silent? jared spirals a little.
the imprint makes your distance feel physically painful, so heāll follow you around like a kicked puppy, trying to fix it ā making you tea, writing you a note, asking over and over if youāre okay yet.
being the only one who can calm him down during a phase or shift.
when heās shaking with rage, seconds from phasing, all it takes is your voice, your hand on his chest, your whisper of āiām right here.ā
the pack watching in awe the first time you talk jared down when heās about to lose it. sam looks impressed. paul looks offended.
āit takes a damn army to hold jared back and she does it with one look?ā
your scent grounding him.
after a rough day or long patrol, he buries his face in your neck, breathing you in like it resets his whole nervous system.
you run your fingers through his hair and he melts instantly.
falling asleep on his chest. itās warm, solid, safe. his heartbeat lulls you to sleep.
sometimes you mumble things in your sleep and jared pretends not to hear ā but he remembers every word.
especially the time you whispered, āi love you, jared.ā before you were ready to say it out loud.
he never brought it up, but he smiled for three days straight.
him talking about you to the elders like youāre sacred. the imprint makes it spiritual for him.
youāre not just his girlfriend. youāre his anchor. his home. his reason.
+ angsty headcanon:
the one time you tried to break up with him āmaybe because you didnāt think you were good enough for him, or felt overwhelmedā jared shattered.
his voice broke. his hands trembled.
āyou donāt get it, do you? youāre it for me. thereās no backup plan. thereās no one else. you walk away, and i lose everything.ā
heās not perfect ājared can be stubborn, a little possessive, and way too confident sometimesā but he loves you with a depth that could break worlds.
heās a wolf with your name etched into his bones.
#jared cameron#jared cameron x reader#jared cameron x you#jared cameron x y/n#jared cameron headcanon#jared cameron headcanons#jared cameron twilight#twilight jared cameron#twilight jared#jared twilight#twilight wolfpack#twilight wolves#twilight werewolves#twilight headcanons#jared cameron wolfpack#twilight fanfic#jared cameron imagine#jared cameron fluff#jared cameron angst#twilight imahine#twilight fic
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Hi, Howdy! Hey! I really love your novel!! I got a little confused by the 4 day, may maybe you help me please? who is it? why we got the bad end staying the night in Renās apartment and he disappear of the home screen? I canāt understand āunset memoryā game, sorry if I wrote smth wrong or smth sounds rude, I swear that I didnāt mean it if happened, Iām really a fan of the novel, Iāve been playing the game since day 1 or 2 I guess, probably day 1, english isnāt my first language, but I tried lol
āā„ā I hope you don't mind me answering these as bullet points!! ^^
"It" will be revealed later in the game! So I won't reveal too much right now.
You can only get the Dead End in Day 4 by staying at Ren's apartment ā the rest of your choices before that don't matter. I'd also pay closer attention to the black smoke and Ren's reaction towards it!
Ren disappears from the home screen because he promised to help the player out (and stop them from getting the Dead End again). Try replaying the game again from the beginning for a surprise!
"Unsent Memories" was another visual novel (initially being written by @10chimes / @unsentmemory, though the project has since been dropped and handed back to me /pos) and is set in the same universe as 14 Days With You. Its storyline and characters are completely separate from 14DWY, so you don't have to worry about them while playing 14DWY.
#I don't think a lot of people know this but River was originally my OC lmao#Obviously BEFORE Jesse picked him up and turned him into an entirely different character /pos#We originally planned for Riv and Ren to have a Billy and Stu dynamic; except River would pretend to be a himboā#ā The same way Ren would pretend to be some Normal Empathetic Guyā¢ļø kjgskg#River was also going to be a lovesick serial killer who incapacitated Bunny so that they'd stay with & depend on him forever#Also because Jesse and I wanted to have a ''same production factory; different yandere'' kind of vibe with Riv and Ren (and their dynamic)#Like... Ren puts Angel above himself and craves THEIR satisfaction whereas River cares about himself and prioritises HIS own satisfaction#Ren would hit his best friend (River) with a car if it meant keeping Angel happy & by his side forever#River would hit Bunny with a car if it meant keeping them by his side forever (thus making him happy)#But!! After everything that's happened in the yandere community; Jesse (understandably) wanted to get away from that kind of environment#So he's since dropped Unsent Memories and hasn't really got any plans to work on it again or return to da yan vn circle#I'm also continuing to write 14DWY the way it was originally planned (with 2017!River only getting a brief cameo to serve up some lore </3)#āBut I'm lowkey holding out just in case Jesse ever considers returning hehe :3 I like their version of River and I wanna do him justice#Until then though?? I'll yearnfully clutch my locket and wait for my lover to return from war.... (she has a literal 9-5 job now) /hj /p#GKJSDG I scrolled up and??? NOT ME RANTING IN THE TAGS AGAIN?????????? WHY DO I UNINTENTIONALLY YAP SO MUCH#I will š¤«š¤ now#š ā answered.#š ā 14 days with queue.#š¤ ā shut up sai.#to be tagged later#weird0nerd
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Some process gifs of my paintings this year!
#the art of a lemon wedge#art process#man#i love painting#moat of my focus on these this year have just been committing to loosening up#vary my strokes and just not over working a painting?#most of that just means trying to keep as much of that first painting pass#since its has the biggest strokes and most energy when i lay it down#and also#NO ZOOMING IN#AHHHH#all this is painted with my seeing the entire piece and just working from big to medium then small#which is good cause u can keep track of details and what youve missed but it also feels like a huge mess for so long#at times its hard to see where ur even going#my favorite piece i think might be my otacon one#i didnt include him in here just cause that piece is like....3 layers?#it very much feels like those how to books that are like. circle. now draw the entire owl#BUT thats literally how i figured it out#1. base 2. simple clean 3. fine line detail#i do eventually want to do a full recording but the thing is#i just dont want to ......#ahaha#but i do#its just the idea of constantly being watched you know?#despite me wanting to share it....#anyways#TO NEXT YEAR#wonder what ill make#:D
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local alley cat gets beaten up (colourised)
#vtuber#holostars#holotempus#axel syrios#constantly like. do I draw enough doppelgang to warrant a separate tag#but then again it's still them. hmmpst#oh my god. the fact that you need to keep drawing art to get better at it#GRAAHHHHHHHHH#normal again#GRAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#the smudge tool is my new best friend I use it on everything#my mind going in circles and circles thinking about how like#doppelgang king and huntsman can only communicate to their elysium selves through dreams#but prince syrios can literally just call axel on the phone#like they're SO funny for that. what are they#AND VICE VERSA? AXEL CAN JUST CALL HIM?#syrios family said 'interdimensional contact? no problem!'#I really want to make something about this#it would piss regis off SO much#imagine trying so hard to connect to another world#and your rival just has the other world on speed dial
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Ben coming back to the cabin to see yet another cannibalistic ritual

#š#yellowjackets#again with the cannibalistic blue balls I see how you guys are playing the game at least I know it's gonna happen#poor javi it should have been travis let's be real he provides nothing#loved the misty on mari violence also#and we were all right about jackie's necklace! our girl's keeping the group together even still#also I know I'm literally the only one on the jackie antler queen train and while I don't think it's true rather than just funsies#it's making me wonder if this is more of a fae situation going on? it's been a looooooong time since I read about all of this stuff but now#after jackie's death and the baby's death and what happened to Ben this week it's kinda making me suspicious#like is the antler queen supposed to represent the unseelie queen? is it the unseelie queen? idk I'll have to look into this to see if it#fits. I'm leaning more towards that now than wendigo psychosis#also hilarious because I did say that portals was insanely jackie coded so we're coming full circle#also I've said I'm suspicious of walter but how the fuck is that dude so rich?? I'm onto his ass he is not to be trusted
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Some scribbles :) (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Texture work is original sure lol#Went in hard on one of those Drawing Advice posts about ''Hey - literally just put pencil to paper and go no worries''#It was fun :D I Do still want to just doodle freely sometimes!#I still enjoy some structure to it so I ended making a grid of various like map-style textures to tell different biomes apart lol#But just general funsies scribbles were pretty good! I enjoyed the lot :)#S'good to just Make with abandon sometimes haha#I really like the hatching effect generally and it's something I want to improve at/implement more so the practice was nice there :)#Layering on paper/with only the one digital layer is always an interesting exercise in negative space and keeping things readable#I like drawing clouds with notably flat bottoms haha I think it's funny that they just sit there#I guess I'm used to cirrus clouds a lot so seeing cumulus big puffies with a clear delineation between bottom and the rest is just fun to me#They look like toys! Designed to sit! But they're just up there! How fun!#Squiggly branches/veins was something I did a tooon as a kid before I got into Drawing On Purpose y'know#Just pages and pages of branches on branches#And curls that curled away from each other - did a little bit of that with the circles and lines but not that much haha#I dunno if I still have any but it's interesting how that dwindled down to basically never over time#I definitely know what I prefer to draw these days but hmm still wonder a bit!#And loop-di-loops haha I was thinking of Erase quite a lot for that one honestly#And the way some Disney Princesses give autographs which one is it-#Belle! I remember when I got her autograph years ago and was really enamoured with the flourish :D#Grace and elegance in shape! Ah! So cool#That and RGB from TPoH haha - all these swoopies! I like them very much :)
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i need to know more about tomo pls i love 'dog with separation anxiety' characters
Ok ok I gotta put this under a cut because hes. rotating inside my head always. Going to put a link to his whole little page i posted bc this gives you Some basic information as to his Vibes.
Tomo is a Corrie medic! Heās got a few different like. personas he puts on depending on context. I talk a lot about his Weird Little Unhingedness persona bc thats when heās letting is all out without hesitation or shame, which is really fun, but heās a brother first, then a medic, and then a pathetic little creature.
As a vod and a brother, he is very, very loyal and committed to his siblings. His core guiding motivation is to make things better for them, but because of how he thinks this tends to be an individual focus rather than a group focus; heāll individually get everyone a blanket before pushing for a new project to get everyone blankets, etc.Ā
When heās off duty and relaxed, he tends to be a friendly, nice guy. Will bend over backwards to help a vod, even one he doesnāt know, with minimal questions asked. Not a whole lot of respect for rules and authority; if you canāt indicate the practical reasons behind a standard or regulation, he will probably ignore it at his convenience. HOWEVER, he is also Definitely younger sibling coded and can be a bit of a shithead as a treat. Kind of a doormat and seems easy to bully but once he realizes heās being teased or bullied heāll go from the NOOOO!!! NOOO!!! younger sibling tears to Iām A Medic And I Can Tolerate And Shut Down So Much Bullshit on a dime. Likes people, likes to be around people in general, will worry and fret and scold if youāre being a bit reckless but also the biggest enabler in all of the med corps tbh. Believes in happiness and autonomy as a primary element of wellbeing and this drives a lot of that enabling; is the most likely corrie medic to go out of the way to let u keep a scar you want even if it makes his job fixing underlying structures more difficult.
Heās actually quite good at being professional when hes Being A Medic, and honestly can be a little ruthless, in terms of not hesitating to make calls (because thatās how you get people killed). His specialization is in orthopedic and reconstructive/plastic surgery, which in practice means heās NOT out of medical much when on shift; if heās called onto site, things are really bad. On a good day he has no emergency cases, but most of his emergencies are cases where there needs to be immediate and dramatic surgical intervention to prevent fatality. Amputations, skin grafts, major muscular trauma, broken bones; he sees a lot of really nasty shit, in his emergency capacity. In a non-emergency capacity, he still sees a lot of unpleasant and upsetting things, because heās, yknow. reconstructing things and overseeing recovery from skeletal trauma, but itās much much safer and less stressful. As a result of all this, he has a really strong stomach and a skewed sense of when gore, blood, or guts gets upsetting.
Also in his capacity as a medic, but off-regulation, Tomo provides a lot of suppourt to trans vode with gender-affirming care! Heāll do just about anything thatās not hazardous; he refers for tracheal shaves and bottom surgeries that require significant specialization or more advanced/specialized equipment than he has. But fillers, FFS, top surgery, horomone access? Heās gotchu.
Also; he knows he's cute. He knows people see him kind of as a pathetic little creature. He ABSOLUTELY weaponizes the shit out of this as a medic. he can cry on command because he learned the magical efficiency of just BURSTING into tears on someone avoiding the medbay. If you aren't guilted/made uncomfortable enough to comply he'll just get someone to drug you and haul you off lol
Heās a really affectionate, friendly, and easygoing guy overall, but the part of him that i talk about most often is his Little Freak setting. This is a manifestation of extreme seperation anxiety. Heās good at respecting verbal boundaries but is a Stage 5 Clinger. He will follow you into the bathroom if ur having a conversation and not notice until ur like excuse me that its weird. Heās really scared of loosing people, either to death or just to the vast distances of the galaxy, so he really really wants to be like. tangibly tied to people. This is where his cannibalism schtick comes from like he cannot imagine a closer intimacy than the physical substance of oneās self being intergrated into the other through consumptionā¦. carry him with you forever and vice versaā¦.. woahā¦..
@mamuzzy also pulled a GALAXY BRAIN take putting him w Mereel in that one art. Rotted my brain hard for them as a cringefail couple where their respective toxic traits slide off each other like water off a duck. I have a Lot of meta for that im not going to elaborate on too much beyond tomos tendancy towards clinginess being satisfied by mereel pinging him when heās away, mereel being unbothered and indulgent of his weirdness, and tomo being game enough to help mereel that mereels habit of social engineering and manipulation to get what he wants doesnt have a chance to get toxic bc tomo is already willing give mereel whatever he wants with the ironclad exception of endangering his patients, which he is too stubborn and protective to be manipulated directly about anyway.
I decided that they met bc mereel needed to change his apperance for smth, hooked up w tomo (convenient emotionally vulnerable mark! yippee!) to gain access to medical supplies, was asking about a kind of filler (intended use for joint injuries but off-label use as a filler) to figure out if he can self-administer it and Tomo was immediately like oh i can administer it if you want to try! Itās easy to dissolve if you donāt like it! Mereel agreed, Tomo put in the temporary fillers, and they both walked away from the encounter satisfied and with each otherās contact information in their pocket.
It is very important to note that while Tomo IMMEDIATELY recognized Mereel was interested in the fillerās capacity to change facial structure and apperance, he did not realize Mereel wanted apperance-altering interventions for a mission until months later when someone pointed out he is a black ops specialist and got together with Tomo to use his skills n specializations.Ā He had fully been working on the assumption that Mereel had just been interested in gender exploration even after they had an established pattern of Tomo administering temporary cosmetic procedures for Mereelās missions
ANYWAY thank u I love him he is so deeply strange. just an odd little dude.
#oc tomo#hes sooooo babygirl#i need to stress: he is so ride or die its literally self destructive#there is a network of squadmates n other medics devised solely to keep assholes from taking advantage#yes they r concerned abt mereel but it seems to be working?? mereel is not Actually asking for anything inappropriate#bc what hes asking tomo to do for him as favors is mostly medical suppourt which is fine#but shinies will beg him for help getting things that r much more dangerous if u dont put a stop to it#he Was accidentally involved in several corrie contraband rings before intervention#i am obsessed w mereel doing his mereel deal of trying to get tomo ingratiated to him only for at every step tomos already there#mereel: *carefully structuring tomos life so he does smth he wants*#tomo as soon as he picks up on it: oh lol here u go [GETTING A GOOD GRADE IN HELPING SOMETHING POSSIBLE TO ACHEIVE AND REASONABLE TO WANT]#mereel: i know i am good at being charming and getting people to give me things but something is definitely wrong with you#dynamic of mereel being like hes kind of like a weird pet and favor machine with absurd kinks i want to study him. i like him tho#and tomo being like yes i fully understand mereel would sell me to satan for 1 corn chip. he is one of my favorite people in the universe#its like 2 people firing dysfunctional relationship grenade launchers at each other n being in a perfect untouched circle after#NOT making each other better or healthier but somehow its working out... failing upwards etc etc#sorry for Massive Dump then Massive Tags i just adore this lil freak
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#Worst emoji combo ever but itās gon be such big depression hours down here so scroll if you want im on the brink of throwing up#donāt you just bloody love it how over the past 3 years youāve only seen people the large total ofā¦. 4 times!!! An average of seeing someon#outside of school 1.3 times per year!! What a bloody fantastic way to spend your teenage years!#Donāt you also just love it when people talk right to you about how they all went out together over the weekend and like did some stupid#shit like your average high schooler would do and youāre just like āoh. I went to my 1 and a half hour long dance class and got ignored the#entire time and when you did try to talk they just spoke over youā oh my fucking god I hate that place so much even the teacher fucking#ignores me once we were going in a circle and she was asking everyone what they got for Christmas and I was in the middle of the circle so#thought hey maybe someone will actually acknowledge my existence but she fucking ignored me and went to next person like why the fuck#And now Iām debating staying in that shithole bc I was invited to a gc for that class and I stupidly thought that someone might want me#There. I wasnāt even invited I secretly scanned the qr code to join over someone elseās shoulder#everyone else there is the best of bloody friends and Iām just there talking to one friend who I donāt even think is my friend#āHey man Iām really fucking sad rn can I talk to youā āwomp womp have you heard stupid fact no.3848594 about my ocs while I ignore you when#you talk about anything else about meā oh my god shut up literally no one else sane would see someone like that their closest friend rn#At least someone wants to talk to me#Like what is it that makes people not want to see my please just tell me Iāll change Iām amazing at changing my personality to fit others#promise me on that Iāve done it my entire life#Even just messaging me more than once every year and Iād consider you my best friend this is how bad Iām getting#What is so bloody bad about me that no one else likes I donāt care how badly you fucking word it just something#It shouldnāt be normal to wish death on people you call your mates bc you heard about them all going out together without you#Oh dear did the gcās without me in it thereās one for every friend group Iāve ever been in why isnāt there one for the main group Iām in rn#Idfc anymore just tell me what Iām doing wrong I keep asking people if they want to go out or how far away they live from some place#And itās always met with ignoring me talking over me or immediately changing the subject#Please if youāre someone I know irl what the fuck am I doing fucking wrong I canāt fucking do this anymore be as mean as you like#Why the fuck does no one ever want to be around me why do I hear so much about stuff others are doing together but never me#It shouldnāt be normal to prefer being in a toxic relationship than what Iām in rn#I fucking hate everything
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